38 weeks

I am having a very weird mental week. Lots of weird things going on in my head and I'm not sure even how to word most of it. Like, I know I am pregnant and having a baby in a couple of weeks but the other day I was mopping the kitchen and it dawned on me, hey, you are about to have a baby. And it was like a revelation hit me that was stunning, but at the same time I am thinking, no shit, of course I am having a baby! And I am sleeping sooooo well, too well, I wake up refreshed and I am so cozy and comfy and I think it is like a cruel joke that all that comfort and good sleep is about to end for about a year of being woken up constantly to be sucked on and kicked in the back. Of course I welcome that at the same time which is why I always feel confused. Are you confused yet?? I am very moody and flippy and the swings are incredible. I miss John when he isn't home but am aggravated when he's here being messy or playing on the computer or not helping with something. I am feeling an overwhelming amount of love for him too, like I am going to burst with it. That was how I felt when I was in labor last time so I see it as a sign of things to come soon.

I tried to check myself today out of curiosity especially because Anne says she doesn't do checks until labor. I think I am at 3cm, I am just not experienced on the cervical feel but I did manage 3 fingers and it was very squishy and seemed lower than normal. It was also very mucousy.

My appt. this week went fine. She can never seem to get a good feel of where baby boy is but I was telling her where he kicks and where his butt sticks out and where I feel his hiccups but it's almost like she doesn't believe me. She can never match up his heartbeat with what I am telling her, kinda aggrevates me because then I doubt what I am feeling all the time and get confused on his bodily movements. Luckily this time she was grabbing ahold of his head with one hand and feeling around with her other hand and he kicked her, So then she believed me! I had to go buy another birth ball this week because his head is not engaged and kinda to the side. I have been doing hula hoop swirls on it and bouncing a little. I also need to call the chiro on Monday and go ahead and schedule a couple of appts over the next 2 weeks to get his head down. I am just thinking my hips are rotated in and it's not allowing him space to wiggle down.

The time has come when everyone starts looking at you and expecting you to explode at any given moment. I hate that. I KNOW I am not going early and I wish people would just give me the next 2 weeks of peace and then start the staring and asking questions.

Well, I guess that is it for now. Thank goodness the cold bug has left the building and I hate to say it but we all seemed to be well today for the first time in almost 2 months. That must also be a good sign of things to come soon :)

37 week pictures late

37 weeks late

oh well, blogger is screwed up and won't let me upload pictures. I am super sick now and sick of being sick. I had a fever all day Sunday and never really made it out of bed. Thank goodness for MIL because John had to work all day. Monday was a bit better until the fever came back at night. We'll see how tonight goes, right now I can't even breathe and I feel like my face is going to explode.

I'll try later tonight or in the morning to add my pictures.

36 weeks

Feeling pretty good, just a little on the moody side. John can't wait for the baby to be born so I won't be so snappy at him! We STILL need a name though but I think we are close to deciding. I went to the chiro Friday and good thing, my right hip was locked up. I probably won't go again until my last week to make sure baby is lined up correctly. It just gets too expensive to keep going everyweek but it sure does feel good!

We got the carseat from UPS yesterday too. It is much nicer in person than online pictures! I can't wait to get it installed, my van is going to be topped out with carseats...no more room! I still need a couple of extras like an old pair of king sheets, a baby book and photo album, an infant headrest for the car seat, nursing pads, baby wash, and I need to wash the boppy and put together the swing. I am getting our parents to make us some food to freeze so I don't have to worry about cooking. I need to make my vegetable soup, some chili, chicken noodle soup, and bake ziti myself.

Anne is now coming for my visits once a week!!!! She will be here Wednesday this week since Thursday is Valentine's day. John and I were going to go to the fair in the morning since he is working that night but M. has a class party at school so I might need Grandma to do the party so we can spend some quality time together (A. will be with us also)...and we haven't been to the fair in about 3 years I think.

John has now joined BMX! Bought his bike, helmet, and jersey on Friday and starting practicing the same day. He did really well on the track and it is wonderful exercise for him. Plus, it gives him great time to spend with J.

This was their first practice run together. J. wasn't feeling real well and wouldn't go down the hill again so they had to walk down it and start at the bottom. Something is just not right with him and I'm afraid we'll be back at the dr. in the next couple of days.

Coming in at the finish line together :)

Ultrasound

Profile shot, he is looking up with hands by his face

Totally was not expecting to have an ultrasound today!! This was my 4th for this baby and that is HIGH for me!

Anne came for my 36 week check up today, BP fine, urine perfect, up a couple of pounds and I told her I was almost positive he was head down. She had to do my blood draw for my iron first and then I had to swab myself for GBS but then she checked baby. From her hearing his heartbeat and then pushing around a lot on him, she thought he was butt down with head and feet up top. She wanted me to go to the chiro(I already have an appt. for tomorrow) and do slantboard over the weekend. I HATE doing that and asked if she was 100% on him or could I go have an ultrasound. SO she called and got me in today. I hate to wait forever but as soon as I was in, she put the scan down at my pubic bone and there was his beautiful perfect head. Relief washed over me, I had already put myself in a funk over all this again. I have become really bad at being worse case scenario, I think this homebirth just means way too much for me and every chance that it is threatened, I panic.

So anyways, he is perfect other than she said he had a hydrocele....had to look it up when I got home. It is a collection of fluid in the testes but usually goes away within a year and is painless. She also said he is 4 kilograms (also had to look this one up) and that converts to 8 lbs. OH MY, I am only just at 36 weeks. I KNOW how inaccurate these are this late in pregnancy so I am not worried, I know he is going to be big anyways :)

Tonight the kids are staying with my parents because John is closing and I am going out to dinner with all the girls for my SIL's birthday. There is no school tomorrow but we are going to pick them up early in the morning because there is BMX practice in the afternoon.

I will update again this weekend.

forgot this

sorry, I forgot to flip it!!

J. got a trophy for participating and because it was his first race, he is soooo proud of it!!!

I also ordered the carseat this weekend. Now I can't wait to get it, it was the last major thing I needed for baby boy. I found this on a really great price
Britax Boulevard Convertible Car Seat 2007 Brownstone.

AND, I did order my birth kit from
In His Hands Birth Supply / pregnancy herbs, natural child birth, child labor. I was afraid to do it and jinx myself thinking if I ordered then I definately would not be having a home birth but it was time to order it, I have to have everything here and ready by 36 weeks. I only need a couple more things like nursing pads and baby wash but those can wait until I go to Target again in the next couple of weeks. I also need to find an old set of king sets for the top layer on my bed. But that's it....

35 weeks-late

I don't know why this shirt looks orange, I have never owned orange in my life! It is actually red.

I thought he had dropped on this day but low and behold, he has flipped. I am having a hard time right now trying to figure out his position...his hiccups are right smack in the middle but he is not kicking me in the last 2 days so I don't know where is legs are. This little guy is such a booger, making me stress and worry so much about his position. Just when I am happy and carefree that he is head down, he flips. I just tried to call the chiro but they were gone already.

J. and John on the starting gate, on the right.

J's first day on the BMX track!!!!! John took him to just practice but then J. wanted to race also. There was only one other kid in his age/class so it was easier. Poor thing fell down a couple of times and bruised his elbow pretty bad (he now owns elbow pads!!). But I am sooooo proud of him for getting back up and finishing the race....that is HUGE for him.

Here he is on the final hill.....in the back, in red. I would be so tired if I tried to cycle over those hills but he did great. He did have sore hips and legs at night though!