How did I forget month11??

Well....I didn't really forget it because Ian ALWAYS wakes up more during the night on his month birthday! How does he know I wonder? He was born after 5 in the morning after over 26 hours of labor and it's like his body just knows, remembers it so he has to relive it by waking constantly!

Anyways, how has he changed in this last month.....he is walking a lot more and is more stable doing so with less falls. He has learned how to climb up a ladder that is attached to a sidecar bed in our room and if you can not find him in our house, go to my room and he will be sitting in the middle of my bed!

I taught him tonight how to turn around and slide off to get down, we'll see if he can remember that! He loves to dance now to music, has starting pointing his finger at things and "tell" you about them, really seems as if he is talking to you too (just in his own one worded language, baa baa abaa), he eats like crazy also, it seems as if we have a new puppy because he is always begging for food! He is willing to try anything and so far his favorites are tofu, squash of any variety, avocado, bread, peas, tomatoes, apples, and bananas. He is very active, always in non stop motion and very curious about the world around him. Everything still goes into his mouth thus he has to be constantly watched.

He has some little curls that are sprouting up in the back. Both the girls had a lot of curls until their hair got real long and their hair completely straightened out. Ian hair is not growing very fast at all so I think it will be awhile before we are talking about cutting it.

Well, baseball season in little league has begun and I have now become a slave to it's schedule. Not too bad this season because Ian is walking so he can run around the park instead of having to be held the whole time. John will most likely be working for most games but thank goodness my parents usually like to come and help me out. Johnny is so excited this year and can't wait everyday to improve it all!

The girls are both in the same gymnastics class for now because enrollment was low so they combined the ages. They both really like it and it's great too because I can put Ian in the nursery and get in a quick workout at the same time.

Weight Watchers is going better. I did start my period so of course my weight went down just like I thought it would! It is just so hard to see past that hill when you are sitting in the valley. I am actually for the first time in 8 years looking forward to buying a bathing suit! No two pieces for me though, only tankinis, the kids left some nice love marks on my belly. I can't wait for the sun and the beach and swimming lessons and vacations!

Addicted to exercise??

Is there such a thing, does anyone know? I HAVE to exercise everyday now! I make it most mornings to the gym and if I can't due to a sick kid/appt/nap issues, then I do an exercise dvd at home. I told John yesterday that my goal was for my legs to physically hurt everyday or I feel as if I haven't done enough. On Monday, because I had an "okay" weigh in at Weight watchers, I went to the gym twice. Today, because I ate too many chips during the kids' nap time, I went to the gym twice.

I am almost afraid that I think I can eat anything as long as I exercise and I know that is NOT the case. Last week at WW, I was up 2 lbs so this week I figured I would have lost it but I only lost 1.8 lbs. Come on!! I only have 10-12 more lbs to lose and this torture of the fluctuations is driving me crazy literally. All I can think about these past couple of weeks is my weight, almost obsessively. And I do eat soooooo healthfully....but when I want a treat, chocolate, chips, peanut butter, etc., I feel I should be able to indulge. But the second I do eat it, my weight goes up.

Another issue is my damn period (or lack of). After the birth of my first 3, it would come back between 9-12 months and be regular at 26 days, no fail. Now, I have had 3 periods with 35 days and counting going on. That makes for a hell of a long PMS!! I CAN'T TAKE IT!!! I feel myself going crazy inside my head and the moodiness is out of control, I just want to sit in a dark quiet room until the flood gates open and I can feel normal again. Of course this is also where the weight issues come on because I always hold/gain weight in the week before. SO you see my issues??

SO I work out like crazy.....to get the adrenaline high and to get sweaty and so someone else can watch my kids for an hour and to be around other adults probably having the same issues as me and so I can eat that damn chocolate! I am so close to my goal yet feel so very far away. WHY do the last 10 lbs have to be the hardest?? I should be on a role and they should just fall off!

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