Anne(Midwife) came today for my 6 week check up. It is always so bittersweet to move out of this kind of relationship but for me today it felt refreshing. To know that I felt complete and beyond my pregnancy times had a very nice hint of satisfaction to it. YAY!!! I am done!! Time to move on and I am excited about this next stage of life. I still have so many feelings of disappointment and confusion that I need to sort through about Ian's birth but at the same time, because I am not going to have another baby, does it really matter? He is beautiful and healthy and what's done is done, enjoy his moment now, not what could have been.