10 weeks now and my icky feeling is easing up a bit. We finally told our parents and mine were thrilled, John's were stunned and it took them a couple of days to say anything nice about it which we expected, it just sucks knowing that's their first reaction. Oh well, its done, time to move on.

J starts kindergarden in 2 days!!!! where is my baby?!! We met his teacher the other day and she seems great and his room is huge. He sat and played for a bit and tried to get comfortable with his surroundings. John took him on his first day of preschool and then came home and cried, only one of the few times I have ever seen him cry....now he wants to take him to K and I think the same might happen.

M starts on Wednesday and she will have the same preschool teacher J had last year. She is excited and I think she will do a lot better this year then last. Her birthday is next week and we are having a puppy party next Sunday for all our family and a few of her friends. We are renting a moon walk water slide since it is still so insanely hot. She went today to pick out her cake and grandma is buying some decorations are we speak!

Well, we are having a busy week with school, a couple of doctor appt, we are gonna try to sell John's truck and get him something different, read cheaper with better epg. I have to prepare for M's party, Grandma's surprise party on Saturday, my Granny coming into town, clean the house for all of the above, ugh I am exhausted all ready. So, it might be until next week that I update.

YUCK is all I can say. I feel like crap from the minute I wake up to the second I go to bed and even when I wake up to pee in the night. I haven't thrown up yet, just feel constantly like crap. This sucks. Does it sound like I am complaining? Well I am. I think God is making sure that I feel for certain that this is the last time I am pregnant. Well, I can honestly say I never want to feel like this again in my life. I need to write this all down so that I don't forget one day and think that I miss this. I know once I get past this stage I will feel great but right now it sucks big time.

Our house was struck by lightening and shot our modem so online time has been nil for the past couple of weeks. I have been using in laws computer which is so slow.

We went to the beach this past weekend for our anniversary. My parents came over for a night and in laws plus David, Sarah, and Lauren stayed for 2 nights. We got Juan's condo for free and my parents stayed in Mark's for free. It sure is nice to know people! The weather was perfect just insanely hot but the kids had a blast in the pool and at the beach. Indian Rocks Beach is perfect because it is all private condos so it is not crowded at all. We went out to dinner for our anniversary and it was a blast. We had bananas foster for dessert and the kids were super impressed with the flames!

Still haven't told the parents about the pregnancy. My mom had female surgery this past week so it just hasn"t been a good time but I think John is just scared to tell his. I can do it anytime I am just waiting on him.

We went out and met Anne and decided to use her for our homebirth. She has no problem driving here and even picked up another client in our town so most of my prenatals were be at home. You cannot beat that at all! It looks like my insurance is being a pain in the butt about paying....it should be at 80% plus a $500 deductible but they wanna shoot for 60% and a $1000 deduct. @@@@@@@ At least I should be happy they will cover any of it, I know some won't even touch HBs....gotta love Florida again!

I finally got my adjustment today that has been delayed a month! I switched chiros because my massage girl left the old one so I followed. It was the BEST adjustment I have ever had! he cracked me in places I didn't know cracked! I feel so much better and no headaches today! I can't wait to get another massage, it has been almost 4 months since my last, ugh.

Well, I feel a bit better about my midwife search. Come to find out a lot of midwives n Florida are turning in their licenses because of a crap load of issues! I have an appt. with Anne on Monday and then an appt. with Labor of Love (with whom I had my last baby) in August.

I am feeling great all be it a bit tired everyday but I can handle that. I don't ususally have too much sickness but my 2nd pregnancy was the hardest, the last was a breeze. I am still working out 3-4 times a week and that may be helping me to stay energized and not sick....I don't even have sore boobs, even when A nurses? Am I just looking for something to worry about?

How have I already gained 3 lbs???? I am still eating very healthfully, still exercising like crazy, and yet where did these pounds come from???? The baby is like the size of this "O" yet it has made me gain 3 lbs!!! I swear sometimes hormones piss me off,lol! Already my pants are feeling a little too tight on my waist and I am looking to getting a belly band! Crazy I tell you.

The kids are at VBS this week and it is giving me and A a little time together and a rest time for me. I have a major headache today and need to go to the chiro so bad but for some reason they upped my copay out of the blue AND will no longer cover massage therapy! This is not the time to do this to me. When I was preggo with A, I was at the chiro twice a week and it was the best pregnancy ever because of how it made me feel to get the massage and get adjusted. Already it the past week my lower spine has slipped to my left and hurts to stand or lay down. Only sitting is bearable. So I left them a message and am waiting to hear back. I might have to change chiros to go back to the other massage girl I used to have.

J and M have a dr. check up today and I am hoping there are no shots. I need to get their forms done for school so that we can get J registered for school in August.

It has been soooooo completely hot, it is hard to be outside at all! John and I did yard work for like 2 hours yesterday and I was miserable with the heat....when is November??

Friday

We got up this morning and went to the ymca then came home, got ready and went out to my parents' for the afternoon. We had cubans for lunch then the kids went out and danced in the rain! They had such a blast and then the girls did singing on the back porch...all in all, a good visit :)

Sooooooo

I wanted to test again on Tuesday since AF still was a no show. I had John wake me up before he left for work at 5:30 so we could do it together, boy was that early, I couldn't even see straight.

Peed on the stick and layed it there for a couple of minutes before we looked....there was only one line so I went back to bed and dh left for work. When I got up at about 8:00 I went back into the bathroom and looked at the test and the second line was there! I called John but was still pretty cautious about being excited maybe maybe the test was a fluke? We decided to get more tests and redo it on Wednesday morning, 4th of July.

When I got up, John had already left to go park the truck out to have a good spot for the parade. I asked him how long until he got back because I really had to pee and wanted to do the test. He told me to go ahead and test so I did and it was positive instantly.

I am beyond thrilled! I don't know when we will tell our parents though. My mom and papa will be super excited for us but John's dad will probably roll his eyes or something and his mom will act like she is exhausted by the thought of having another grandchild but don't get me started on that right now.

Anyways, I think my edd will be March 12th but I will proabably go past that. I am excited to be planning for this baby to be born at home also!!

tested

Soooo, I couldn't wait until Monday (today) and ended up testing on Saturday night....BFN.

Still no show on AF. My face is breaking out like crazy which it hasn't done in a very long time so hormones must be up high which is good. My fertility friend chart is saying that I ovulated on cd16 and so I am 11 dpo....I always have 25 day cycles and right now it is cd27...I really don't know what to think....maybe hormones aren't high enough for a test or maybe this is just a weird month and af will show?? ANyhow, I am now testing again on Wed, 4th of July, first thing in the morning.

Today, me and the kids went downtown to meet my mom for lunch. We went to Ybor for lunch and the kids split a cuban while we had spanish bean soup and deviled crabs, yummmy! The rain is horrid today. The electricity went off 3 times today at the house and the lightening was so bad. I had to drive 25 mph all the way home the rain was so thick.

Well, John should be on his way home from work and I am thinking pizza hut for dinner will be great tonight! I didn't cook and it doesn't look like it will happen now!